OMG nearly told my friend everything, but I left out the one vital piece of information so she now thinks that I am just emotional - I fucking miss you soo much, ignoring my e-mails and texts is beginning to hurt (OK 1 e-mail but anyway).
Quite literally just wanna start what i stopped a couple of weeks ago, can’t deal with this anymore, I keep telling myself 4 more days till I am home where people actually like me but I don’t know about that anymore. Have my hot water bottle in bed and am ready for another shit night of tossing and turning. Haven’t felt this bad in a LONG time - even painting my nails earlier didn’t make me feel any better!!!